New Year's Resolution

So I'm a cliche... I'm making New Year's Resolutions. :)

• Exercise often. 2 days a weeks of martial arts. 2 or more days a week at the gym with Jon, lifting and cycling. and other various exercising, like walking, biking, playing on my trampoline
• count calories. I'm determined to use myfitnesspal.com to count my calories and make sure that I'm hitting the amount of protein I need as well. 
• Take vitamins. I'm supposed to be taking actigall (to avoid gallstones), a multivitamin, and calcium supplements. i need to make sure to take them all, everyday.
• Have a protein shake for breakfast. I need to take in 70 grams of protein a day and it's hard to do that with just food with limited space, so a protein shake will jump start my day. 
• Don't buy snacks. Limit snacks to healthy things and limit them. Only indulge in dark chocolate. 
• Set a weight goal. I think I want to be 130-140. I would like to reach my goal by my 21st birthday which is in June 2012. 

Wish me luck! I am determined not to give up on my goals and to get rid of my final 60+ pounds!

Changes

So I've had a very discouraging month long stall. This is probably stemming from too little protein and too many carbs as well as massive stress from college and a job search. I figured this would be a good time to look back and reflect on what has changed and what is going to change as soon as I get myself together and get back on track.

A lot of clothes that I've had in my closet have begun to fit. I've enjoyed the catharsis of throwing away or giving away clothes that don't fit anymore. I'm enjoying wearing some expensive coats that were given to me but I was never able to fit. I also find it ironic that I'll be losing more weight during a season when most people cover up, so when I "reveal" myself in the spring/summer, it will be all the more shocking. I've been enjoying shoe and make up shopping more.  I went through a period where all of that seemed silly because heels made my feet hurt and make up seemed like a waste of time. It's also more fun to be able to sit and cross my legs easily and fit into chairs.

I still see myself as quite large and I'm sure others to do, but I've shrunk from a certain level of large- like massive to extra chubby. I still have a number of insecurities but I can see how they might lessen as I shrink. I hope you all have a great holiday season and that I am successful with my efforts as January 1 rolls around.